awakening
... wake up this is just a dream, a dream of infinity a dream where no rules are accapted, a dream that has begun
thousands of years ago. i feel my mind gets empty and nothing has left in it, just one question: 'who am i?' no 
words no sentences i just feel that it's getting empty... the music is not slowing it anymore it's getting faster
and faster nothing can stop it, not any more. it eats you up in a second and leaves you as a raped bitch on the 
corner: you try to scream, maybe somebody hears you but no chance this is in you inner part, no screaming helps
that is just a waste of energy, a waste of your time a waste of... getting over-in-out, you start shaking and 
you don't feel anything anymore, you just hear the voices from the past - do not go there - you are in it
it's over, you lost - no more timeouts - try it again (?), unfortunately this is a game where no retries are allowed
you have one try and... and just flow with it or die with it... what's this is this an way-out from this, no it's
just another dead end, no ways out, because there were no ways in...trying to hold yourself with your own hands, but
that does not help - and you know it - so just face it this is it, this was it... <b>scream</b> but that does not
help, since nothing helps anymore, coz you've lost it, somewhere there under the bushes:
<p align="center">YOU ARE DEAD</p>
::: upd4t3: i'm insane? true. but at least found my Jan Garbarek Visible World album which calms me down and 'i can
pretend' that i'm like them - The Survivor