i've just gave up
::: it is the 6th time i've sit down to study, but it seems no chance, i've just gave it up. i cannot
 concentrate, i cannot think, everything i read just goes out from my head as a read them. obviously 
 i've just got tired of all this shit! dunno what has changed but there's no motivation inside me to sit
 down and study things that i really do hate! i don't see the point why do i have to study things that
 are well known to be none used nowdays... and DON'T tell me that it's for the that stupid paper, it's
 bullshit!